I knew it wasn't the time for me to have a child.
This all happened this morning and it is now very late. The fact I discarded a life is really getting to me now and I've cried for hours. I apologised repeatedly to my baby and I explained that I couldn't give them the life they deserved. I told them that nobody I knew was up there in heaven with them, but my friend had asked her nanny to look after them. I told my baby in the skies to look for her because she was a lovely woman and she would look after them until I came to be there. The procedure was not bad at all, the psychological side of things is the worst.