Forced to have sex against my will I became pregnant and spent weeks in denial

By Elle

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I am 20 years old and was unfortunately forced to have sex against my will. I became pregnant as a result of this and I am in no position in life to have a child. I am a second year student in college and by the time I realized I was pregnant I had consumed substances that I knew would be harmful.

I was in a stage of denial for a few weeks, which definitely added stress to my current situation. I came to the conclusion that I would have to have an abortion at 10 weeks. I'm basically writing this as it is happening actually, but I'll start from the beginning of the day:

I took 800mcg of misoprostol at 8:45 am. I experienced nausea and vomited a few times around 9:30am, but after that nothing happened. At about 11:45am I took another 800mcg but this time i inserted them vaginally, as I read online that it was more effective.

I began to experience cramping around 12:30, and the cramps quickly grew more and more painful, almost unbearable, I can only imagine that they were similar to contractions.

I stayed in the bathroom, sometimes on the toilet sometimes pacing around, lying on the floor, anything to make the pain subside for a moment. But still there was no bleeding.

The cramps began to become weaker around 2:30 pm, and I was exhausted from the pain so I decided to take a nap.

I slept until about 5pm, and when I woke up there was still no blood. I went to pee at 5:15 pm and FINALLY there was some light bleeding in the toilet. From 5:45-7pm I continued to experience bleeding (I didn't keep track but it just seemed spontaneous) and also passed a few clots.

At 7:30 pm I was sitting on the couch and felt a rush of liquid, but when I went to the restroom there was not blood on my pad, it was more of a clear liquid.

I imagine this was my “water breaking” so to speak because after about 2 minutes of sitting on the toilet I passed what I assumed to be the fetus. Now it is 8:15 pm and I have some mild cramping, but not too bad. I am just waiting for whatever comes next, whatever else needs to be expelled from my uterus I suppose.

I can say that I was not emotionally prepared for the visual, and if any of you are emotional by any means (I am not and I definitely felt something indescribable) I would advise you not to look.

Elle sent this story in on 19/05/2015

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