Hi, I'm 17 years old and in July last year my boyfriend of two years and I split up, but we kept sleeping with each other (I know…very stupid).
In August last year, it was my best friend’s birthday, so we were all going out on the town. When we were out, I bumped into my ex and we got chatting and he ended up coming back to mine. We had unprotected sex. A few weeks later I realised I was late for my period, so I did a test. The test said negative, so I just put it to the back of my mind.
A few weeks later, I started to bleed, but it was very very light and only lasted one to two days. I still didn’t think anything of it, but after a few more weeks my friend persuaded me to do another test. It was POSITIVE. I cried for hours. I didn’t know what to do and with my ex in the army, I felt well and truly alone.
I decided to have a termination. I didn’t tell my mum and dad, so since the 6th October 2007, I’ve had this massive secret locked away inside of me. I keep having nightmares about my baby. I’ve got no-one to talk to, I can’t stop crying. Please can someone help me? Thanks xx
Editor’s note: Thanks for writing in...You don’t say much about why you decided to have a termination nor why you’ve kept it so secret, but it is obviously a heavy burden for you to carry and you need to pay attention to what is happening in your heart. You need some compassionate and caring support and you can find it by contacting a centre, ringing the helpline or using Online Advisor. You’ll be able to talk confidentially with someone who understands how termination affects women and find help for how you are feeling. Take care.