I was 20 years old when I found out I was pregnant.
I was 20 years old when I found out I was pregnant and was halfway through my degree.
Initially, I felt really scared, alone and cried every day and night. Having children has always been my dream, but it was with a guy I had only been dating for a few months. This guy didn't want to pursue a relationship with me whereas I was totally smitten by him. Not only did I have to get over the abortion but him as well.
I told him a week after I found out, he said he would be there for me etc but only if I aborted. I wanted to keep it but I knew it wasn't the right time and wasn't the ideal situation with university and had always wanted to be married and financially stable. The guy came with me to the hospital and after I had the abortion I never saw him again.
7 months on I do regret it at times but selfishly I know it's the right thing I did for the baby and me. I will always remember that time because of all the emotions I felt and I can honestly say it was the worst time of my life. I don't go a day without thinking about what my baby would be like. For the first time in my life I never felt empty, I felt like I had a purpose and one day I will hopefully have children and look back and realise I would never have coped. I don't want my precious angel to think that for a second I didn't want it because I so did :(