I had an abortion and tried hard not to let my emotions change our relationship

I had an abortion because I was in the middle of my masters degree. He was too. We decided it was for the best, and I tried hard to not let my emotions change the relationship afterwards.

One month later, I discovered he was seeing someone else in uni and I have had to live with the hell of seeing it for the past six months. Part of me still loves him as I have since I was nineteen and I am now twenty-three, but part of me hates him more than I ever knew I was capable.

His new girl doesn't know about any of it, I'm pretty sure he must have started seeing her before I even had the abortion.

It hurts so much to think I made such a life-changing decision with someone who really doesn't give a s**t about me.