I still find this really hard to think/talk about, though I have to admit I had an abortion when I was 17 years old.

I still find this really hard to think/talk about, though I have to admit I had an abortion when I was 17 years old. I had been brought up as a catholic and had always been pro-life. I found myself pregnant and alone, my parents had split up etc. However, I want to say that I have never got over the experience or more importantly the decision I made. I have lived with MY decision for nearly 30 years and the guilt and loss never goes away. I suppose I did what I thought was right at the time.... Editor’s note: Thank you for sharing your story with us…This has been a great burden for you for many years, hasn’t it? Yes, you did do what you thought was right at the time, given the circumstances you were in and the knowledge and resources you had at the time. Those pressures must have been huge in order to deflect you from what you had been brought up in and what you believed. The truth is painful and you have been honest with yourself about it all these years. But truth is only half of the equation – the other half is grace. God can never love you more, nor love you less than he does right now. Read John 8:1-11. God did not judge. he acknowledged the wrongdoing - as you have - and then enabled the woman to choose to become who she was meant to be. And that’s your choice now. It is time to let the burden of guilt lift and experience kindness; no one else is punishing yourself but you. Contact your nearest centre for some support, or ring the helpline or use Online Advisor. We’ll be thinking of you.
This story was sent in on 30/01/2009

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