I am 19 and I had an abortion a few months ago. It was something I really didn’t want to do but I had to because my boyfriend didn’t want the baby.

I am 19 and I had an abortion a few months ago. It was something I really didn’t want to do but I had to because my boyfriend didn’t want the baby. I have regretted it every day since I had it done. I cry most nights thinking about it and how I would be six months pregnant by now. I think to myself every day that what I did was wrong but I didn’t want to lose my boyfriend. He is the love of my life so I had to do it. Editor’s note: Thanks for sharing your story…You are obviously hurting about ending your pregnancy. You were torn between two losses – lose the baby or lose your relationship – both of which would cause you pain. As you say, you felt as if you had no choice, but now you are struggling with grief, loss and guilt and I suspect this is causing you tension in your relationship anyway. You may benefit from some post-abortion support at your nearest centre which can provide a safe place to talk about what’s happened and an opportunity to come to terms with your feelings. Don’t wait any longer, or keep the pain to yourself – there is healing for you. We’ll be thinking of you.
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