I was 17 when I got pregnant. It's been a year and I still cry myself to sleep most nights..
Thank you for sharing your story with us.. It must be so difficult for you living with such painful feelings of regret and sadness, wishing that you had made a different decision. Your decision has affected you hugely, and I can see that the pain is still so fresh for you. Although painful, your tears are a way to release these emotions - the alternative would be to push the pain away and not allow yourself to express your feelings. I would really encourage you to get in touch with your local centre or call the national helpline on 0300 4000 999, and speak to one of our advisors. Often we look back and see things very differently, and wish we had made a different decision. You appear to be still grieving, and it may be too painful for you to start our post-abortion recovery programme - The Journey - but I would really encourage you to talk to one of our trained advisors about how you are coping at the moment. Some women describe the way they feel following an abortion as like a cloud covering life, and have felt unable to enjoy life like they used to, or see life in colour in the same way. Although you cannot turn the clock back, the post-abortion programme, when you are ready is a positive way forward, and will help take you to a place of deep healing and peace.