I am a 20 year old girl who had an abortion in february 2009!By anonymous on 08/01/2010
I am a 20 year old girl who had an abortion in february 2009! I began a relationship with a guy who was a little older than me. He was very verbally aggressive to me and very much a bully. When I had found out I was pregnant he was very happy and wanted the baby, but after a while he decided he did not want me or the baby, and wanted his ex girlfriend instead. He walked out and left me with nothing, saying he wanted our baby dead. After a few days he would come crawling back full of apologises, but then change again and be full of hate for me and my baby. He said he would never leave me in peace with my baby so I thought an abortion would be the best thing to do, even though I was in pieces when I had to go through with it. I cried everyday afterwards and still do till this day. I am full of guilt and anger and don't know who to turn to. I would be so grateful if someone could please help me and ease my suffering. Thanks.
It sounds as though you felt pressurised by your boyfriend into making your decision to have an abortion. This often leads to sadness and regret, and your anger and guilt are very typical of post abortion stress. There is an excellent post abortion support called 'The Journey' that would help you to work through some of the grief you are dealing with. Many pregnancy centres offer this programme and I think it would really help you. Look on the web site to see if there is a centre near you that offers this, or call us on the national helpline 0300 4000 999.