I wrote about my abortion in November 2009 - this is how I'm feeling now
I recently wrote about my abortion that took place in November 2009. This is just a follow up to how I am feeling now since the event.
I have no one to talk to. There is a sadness that aches in my heart every day.
When I think about the abortion, I have to immediately tell myself to not think of it. I don't know how long I can keep dismissing my thoughts... I feel so bad about my decision.
Just the thought of my unborn child being suctioned away kills me; I have died a thousand deaths since November 2009.
I will never know him/her. Never see my baby smile. Never hear my baby call my name. I made the awful gut-wrenching choice to go to the clinic that day and terminate my baby's life.
I don't see any light at the end of the road on this. I deserve nothing but misery. I hate myself.