I was over the moon when I found out I was pregnant

I am now 21 years old, I was 20 when I found out I was pregnant. I was over the moon, although me and my boyfriend did argue all the time and I couldn't rely on him for anything I still knew we would be able to work things out and I know that he was over the moon about it too.

I did what my Dad wanted

2 weeks after finding out I told my dad and he made it clear that he wouldn't be there if I had kept the baby. I was living with my dad so I decided I would have an abortion because it was what my dad wanted. I regret this so much now and I cry whenever I see a friend that has a baby or is pregnant. I never wanted to have the abortion but I didn't want to lose my dad either. Thinking about it now I know my dad would have come to terms with it and helped me out.
It's been 3 months now and I still cry everyday. Whenever I see a baby or even a pregnancy bump I cry. If anyone is thinking about having an abortion because it is what somebody else wants, don't do it. Think about what you want, and only you. Yes your life will change but you will get through it with or without a baby.

Editor's Comment

It is very easy to be pressurised into a decision when you believe someone you love wants you to do that. Your Dad's reaction was probably a panic reaction and given time he may well have talked it through more rationally and asked what you really wanted to do.
I agree with you that this very important decision needs to be thought through carefully to be sure it is the choice you want. Your tearfulness and reaction to pregnant women and babies indicates the grief and regret you are going through. If you would like some help and support to work through these feelings please follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
Or you could ring the national helpline to speak to a trained advisor 0300 4000 999.

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