I am 7 weeks pregnant and I am booked in for a medical abortion

I am 7 weeks pregnant and I am booked in for a medical abortion on Thursday. I have already taken the 1st tablet which I have been told softens the cervix. I am feeling slight cramping today and I am so upset about this decision even though I know it is the right 1. I have been holding onto hope since I discovered I was pregnant that I could keep my baby if my circumstances were different, but they aren't and never will be.

A reality check that the pregnancy is not continuing

This upsets me so much feeling these cramps and is like a reality check for me that I really am not continuing with the pregnancy. I am dreading Thursday mostly because its like I have to watch-feel "the products" come away from me. I am not naive in that it is still only a foetus not a full term baby, but I can't help but feel I am losing my child but not because I don't want it. Everything in my life situation is screaming that this is the right decision to do but I don't feel that, I hope after this a sense of relief will come I really do.

Editor's Comment

I know that taking a tablet often doesn't feel like ending the pregnancy, but it is obviously becoming more real to you now. It is a difficult experience to go through and I hope that Thursday will not be too traumatic for you. Please ring the national helpline 0300 4000 999 if you need to speak to someone either on Thursday or afterwards if you are finding things difficult.
This story was sent in on 17/03/2010 and it's been viewed 1,090 times.

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