I'm 17 and I've just found out I'm pregnant!
I still don't know what I want.I don't think I could live with myself if I get rid of it, but I'm scared of becoming a mother. I still don't know what I want. I have only told my partner and a few close friends. I have not told my family.
My sister had a little baby girl 6 months ago, and sadly she only lived for 4 weeks. So my family are still grieving for her, which is also another reason why I do not want to get rid of it. My sister would do anything to have her baby girl back! And I think me getting rid of one is just selfish! I don't think I would ever be able to look my sister in the face again! I don't think she would ever forgive me!
My partner has a pretty decent job he brings in enough to support a baby. But I don't think he is ready to give up his luxuries to do so. He drives, and had a very supportive family, so its not like we couldn't actually do it because I believe we could. I am in my second year of college but my college has daycare place that I could take my baby if I kept it. So I could still go to college and sort myself out.
Sorry for the essay! I really need some advice. Please HELP! X
Editor's CommentI can hear that you are confused by the test results. It's almost impossible to get a false positive result, so it's probably best to assume you are pregnant. I can understand your dilemma after your sister's loss, as you rightly say, there is a lot of grief in your family. It's important that you make a decision you are comfortable with, and are not pressurised or rushed into anything. Both you and your partner would benefit from talking this through with a trained advisor, who can give you accurate information and help you to think through your choices and decision. Exploring your fears about becoming a mother would be part of that process. It would be good for your boyfriend to hear how you are feeling about abortion, and for you to understand his reactions. You can get in touch with a trained advisor by ringing the national helpline 0300 4000 999 or follow the link to find a centre for crisis pregnancy support in your area.
This story was sent in on 10/12/2010