An abortion 6 months ago and now another panic

I had an abortion back in August and I got on birth control the day after I had it.
My boyfriend's mom paid for it, no questions asked. I knew what I wanted to do before I even took the test... I already had a gut feeling I was pregnant, besides missing my period.
Well I just finished my birth control for the month and my period is not here yet and I'm not sure if it's just me stressing myself out... but I'm getting that weird feeling in my stomach I got last time. I did miss 1 or 2 pills this month that I took the next day.

I'm so terrified that I'm pregnant again

I haven't told anyone. Not even my boyfriend. Its kind of hard to tell him especially since I was trying to break up with him.
I'm going to have to tell my mom this time, and I know for a fact she will support me but she's going to freak out and I really don't want that. I'm going to get a pregnancy test tomorrow. I'm so stressed out... I have exams all this week and I have NO money and I want to get this done ASAP if the worst comes true. I'm sooo scared... this is really not good.
Although I think that having an abortion was a really smart decision, I don't want to have to go through it again... physically it was terrifying. I almost fainted in the bathroom when I had to pee for them when I went in that day. I was only 7 weeks last time so I was really early, and if I'm pregnant now I think it will be earlier. I'm seriously about to have a panic attack!!! I want an abortion again... but I'm so afraid to tell my mother and to have to walk into the clinic again and just feel scared.

Editor's Comment

Before you panic too much I think you should take a pregnancy test to see if your fears are real. It may be your feelings are the effect of the pill but if you miss a pill you should take it within 12 hours or use extra precautions for 7 days.Please contact someone to talk things through iof you find out that you are pregnant.

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