8 weeks pregnant.
I am married but my husband and I separated last christmas.
During this time I met someone I have known for quite a few years and I fell pregnant. When I first told him I was pregnant he said he would be part of the child's life but now he is saying he wants nothing to do with it.
My husband and I have also said we would like to try again with our marriage, but I am unsure if I can have a termination as the only reason I would be doing it would be to give myself and my husband a chance, which doesn't feel a good enough reason.
Also I don't feel comfortable with abortion, I know a child is growing inside me and I know if I have a termination I will regret it and it will destroy me, but I don't want to lose my husband in the process.
I have suggested still being a couple me having the baby but not living together, but my husband feels he can't do this and I am unsure what to do. I have a history of depression and also have a blood disorder so operations etc are more risky for me. I hate myself for letting this situation happen, I didn't intend for it to, but I'm really unsure if I can have a termination. I am afraid I would then have to live with the fact that it's my fault if my marriage has broken down.