I am a mother of 5 healthy beautiful children.
By anonymous on 02/09/2008I am a mother of 5 healthy beautiful children. I am currently 16 weeks pregnant. I had a miscarriage at the beginning of the year, it was a very hard time for me even though I was only 6 weeks gone, but my husband was away working which is what he does for 12 weeks at a time then home for 6 weeks. However in the last week things have changed, my husband who is currently away called me on the phone one night to tell me he doesn't love me anymore and doesn't want to be with me. He is also saying he no longer wants this baby. He was so elated when he found out about this pregnancy and now he has gone so cold about it all. The thought of bringing a child into this world without the love of both parents is tearing me apart, and the idea of raising another child this time on my own, I find hard to imagine and scary. I feel so numb about it all. My other children are now at an age where they all attend full time school. I can already feel this baby move and have had several scans. I am so lost, hurt and confused.
Editor’s note: Thanks for sharing with us…you sounds as if you need some sensitive support at a time when you feel abandoned and alone, carrying the burden of a large family and wondering what the future will hold for you. Having been affected so negatively by the miscarriage, you have already experienced deep loss and this is adding to it. You haven’t said whether you are considering the future of this pregnancy, but if you are, then it’s even more vital that you get in touch and find the support you need.
I want to encourage you to contact your nearest pregnancy centre, primarily so that you can tell your story and think through what’s happened, but also to find a friend who can come alongside you in this difficult time and help you through. It’s not impossible to come through this. There is hope, but you need support. Please get in touch.