I'm 20 and had an abortion 6 months ago and now need another one - I keep making the same mistakes
Six months ago, I got pregnant from some creep at work and had an abortion. I told my boyfriend it was probably just from us not being as careful.
So, it was October I had an abortion and it was horrible. I almost couldn't go through with the procedure because of the physical pain. I never wanted to do it again.
Well, six months later and I need another one.
There is no other choice for me. I can't tell my boyfriend this time; I can't tell anyone.
I need to find a way to get to a clinic and find some way to pay for this without my parents finding out. I don't have much money... at least 100$... at least.
When I went to have the first abortion, the very kind-hearted staff at Planned Parenthood [an American abortion provider] were able to bring the price down to only 100$, which I was able to afford then.
Now I am not only afraid of having another abortion (but I will get over it because I have to), but I am also afraid of not being able to pay, or having the staff remember me.
I don't know why, but that still sticks out. How can I be so dumb to repeat the same mistakes? It's like I feel they will deny me because of that. I might go some other place and I only hope they can bring the price down low enough again for me.
This is horrible.
I'm really trying to think of ways to make myself have a miscarriage instead.