I understand how he feels but I won't abort my baby
I just found out that I'm pregnant. Exactly 7 weeks.
My husband and I have been married for almost 4months now after living together for almost 5years.
Recently after we've had a couple arguments, he asked me for a divorce, saying that he wouldn't live his life with all this drama, that we needed to get out of each other's hair. I told him you don't just get a divorce because you argue a lot, we just need to talk and find a way to solve our issues and he seemed to come around a little.
I didn't get my period for the month May and thought maybe it was because we'd had those arguments and since I had gotten very emotional, my period didn't come or something like that.
Not long after that, I started to get sick and I thought I had gastroenteritis because I was very gassy and in a lot of pain and throwing up. Just to get the doubt out of my mind, I bought a home pregnancy test and was totally devastated when it read positive.
At the beginning of our relationship, he had let me know that because he had been through two messy divorces and had two boys, he didn't want anymore kids. And it was fine with me, I have two kids myself.
During those 4 years and months, I was very cautious, because we never used any protection, to keep track of everything that was going on regarding ovulation and stuff. I never got pregnant, not even a scare.
At a certain point, we could have sex anytime of the month, nothing would happen. I even thought I couldn't get pregnant anymore.
But today when I told him that I am, he told me that I knew from the get-go that he didn't want any more kids so I have to abort the baby. I told him, I understand how he feels, I didn't expect or plan to be pregnant but that I wouldn't abort.
It had happened to me in the past and I regret it every single day. Every time I go to Church, I pray God will forgive me and I vowed if I ever get pregnant again to have my baby.
He said he's sorry but he can't be in a marriage or relationship involving having kids. I told him that I would rather give it up for adoption than abort and he said he can't force me to do anything but he can't be involved in this and he won't.
I told him it was fine. I would try to make things as easy as possible for him. He moved out of our bedroom and said that he's gonna file for divorce.
I'm sad that he doesn't even want to try to make it work but I know inside of me that I made the right decision. I don't have any papers, so I can't look for a job to support that baby but I know God gave it to me for a reason and He will make a way.
I'm still hoping my husband will change his mind.
God help me!
Marie-Anne sent this story in on 04/06/2015