I had a feeling I was pregnant

I'm 18 and in my first year of university, During the summer I was in sexual relation with a boy, he wasn't my boyfriend but we're seeing each other.
There was one time we failed to use protection, I'm normally on the pill but due to health problems can no longer take them. I had a feeling I was pregnant I was late and didn't feel right in myself. I didn't tell anybody though I was scared and didn't want to face reality.
So I started university 28th September and mid October, I felt severe cramping and stomach pain. I wasn't sure what to do so I carried on as normal till I started to bleed. I was passing a lot of blood clots then eventually I saw what looked like a foetus. I was not sure what to do, so went to google to see pictures and read on it. I was at university alone and scared and had no one to turn to and talk to, I felt hurt like my heart felt numb. I didn't know what to do with myself for the next few days. I just blocked it from my mind and ignored it. However a few months on and I'm starting to hurt again emotionally.

Editor's Comment

You may be grieving the loss of the pregnancy. Even though it was unexpected many women can feel as though they were already attached to a pregnancy even in the early stages. The fact that you believed you saw what looked like a foetus may have left you with a strong feeling. If you would like to speak to someone about this, there is help available, for pregnancy loss support.
This story was sent in on 08/02/2015

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