I was in shock as I had seen my little one when I was 8 weeks

Friday night after a long day of shopping I went to the bathroom and realized I had brownish blood in my panties. I didn't think it would be something to worry about although I did mention it to my husband but he told me that it would be fine.

Next day I woke up to go to work and I bled a little more but it wasn't as much so I didn't worry... Then, at work I started bleeding a little more heavy... And that's when I worried. I told my boss I had to leave as I needed to go to the ER.

I got there, had a pelvic exam, ultrasound, and doctor had the worst news for me... There was no heartbeat, so I was having a miscarriage... I was in shock as I had seen my little one when I was 8 weeks.

I couldn't believe it... He sent me home and told me I would naturally have it in the next couple days... And on Sunday night I did.

I went over to my sisters house to tell her the news and she told me I should sleep over and I did, I started cramping though, and the pain just got stronger and stronger and I couldn't take it anymore.

I told her to take me to the restroom, that I need to poop... My husband wasn't there so I told her to call him and once he got there I felt the urge to push...

It was very very painful but I did it... My baby was out... I was painful physically and emotionally... We were all in tears...

I was so excited to have my second child but it couldn't be. It changed my life completely.

:( it's so hard to cope with my loss I still can't believe it...

This story was sent in on 19/05/2015

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