The arm implant makes it so I never have my period so I had no reason to expect pregnancy

I am 19 years old and I became pregnant at the beginning of last summer. My boyfriend and I always use protection and I use the arm implant as birth control. The arm implant makes it so I never have my period so I had no reason to expect pregnancy.

Without knowing I was pregnant I had foot surgery equipped with harsh medicine and ex-rays. A few days after my surgery I miscarried on the bathroom floor of my house.

I never planned or wanted a baby (especially at my age) but I can't escape the feeling that I should have known and should have better protected the child. I don't want to feel this way, I honestly don't know what I would have done if I had known before the surgery but no matter what I tell myself I don't know how to escape this guilty feeling.

This story was sent in on 27/08/2015

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