It's almost been a year since I had an abortion.

It's almost been a year since I had an abortion. I was 15 at the time and was forced into it. I was always against abortion and always thought that if I were to fall pregnant as a teen I would keep the baby for sure. Anyways I'm 16 now and I still cry often over the loss of my baby, I long to hold him in my arms and kiss his forehead goodnight. But instead I'm left here still mourning almost a year later.
Now I'm questioning if I should get pregnant again, well I have been since I had the abortion. I know I'm young and I know it's probably a stupid idea. But it's an idea I can't seem to remove from my mind. I want what I lost a year ago. I just don't know if I should or if I should just wait until I finish school?

Editor's Comment

It is very painful that you are still mourning your loss a year after the abortion. When you feel pressurised into a decision that goes against what you believe it is often difficult to come to terms with afterwards.
Your longing to replace the baby you lost is very understandable, but my feeling is that you would be better to have some post abortion counselling first so that you can process some of the painful emotions you have been feeling. Once you have dealt with these you would be in a better position to think about the right time to start a family. If you would like some help in finding post abortion support there are several options. You can call the national helpline, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.

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