I have missed my periodBy anonymous on 13/12/2013
I am currently 18 years of age and it will be my birthday in a little over a month. I have missed my period, I am never late. The last time I was late was when I found out I was pregnant, aged 16. My previous partner then said it was the only option for me. I agreed, as selfish as it sounded I couldn't bear the thought of getting into 'trouble' from my family, the shame that it would bring upon my family and how my mother would react. In all honesty I think something as dramatic as this will cause my mother to go crazy and to do unspeakable things to herself. I remember finding out that I was pregnant in year 11 before class. I immediately went to the counsellor and my only thought was adoption. If I could run away and find accommodation away from all the chaos I would have left in a heart beat. I had no support networks and no financial stability, I was still in school. My partner at the time was 19. He loved me dearly, and pulled together as much money as he needed to cover the cost of the abortion. We sat in the clinic reception crying before my procedure. Neither of us wanted this. There was not one day that went by where we didn't regret giving up the child. Two years later and I am still grieving at my loss, my mistake and my choice. I was the mother, I should have protected the child but I was still only a child myself. The father and I continued dating for the next year and a half. At the beginning of this year we broke up. I have been seeing my partner for about 6 months now. I have missed my period by a week now and I am so afraid this is a repeat of my past.