I'm 34 weeks pregnant after being raped, I'm having a girl and she's the reason I keep going
When I was 14, I was raped. I had been raped before because I had grown up in a rough situation. This was different though. I didn't know the man who did this to me. I was so scared that I didn't tell anyone.
I kept it inside for weeks. I kept getting really sick and really tired. I started to think that I might be pregnant. I first told my mom that I had been raped then my suspicions that I was pregnant.
She immediately helped me to get a pregnancy test and stayed with me while I took it. We waited until the result showed up and it was positive. I cried. All I could do was sob.
My mom eventually talked to me about what I was going to do. I knew that I could not give this baby up. I was raised in foster care and I would never let another innocent child go into foster care if I could help it. I did consider abortion. In cases of rape even most religions are tolerant of abortion, so I did consider it.
I eventually decided to keep my baby, but it was mostly out of obligation, not love. By the time I told my dad, I did love this child and I was excited to get to meet and I was trying to move on from all that had happened to me.
My dad was furious when I told him that I was pregnant. I was too embarrassed to tell him about my rape at first. I guess I said something that clued him in as to what happened and he asked my mom for clarification so that I would not have to say that word.
They both support my decision to keep this baby and they are helping me so much. I am currently 34 weeks pregnant and I will be having a girl. I'm so excited to see her and get to hold her. She is the reason I keep going through the hardest times of this pregnancy.
For anyone going through anything similar, I'm sorry, but it will get better if you give it time.
Cara sent this story in on 04/01/2020