I knew she was my baby
By anonymous on 08/02/2010
I was 17 when I found out I was first pregnant. Nobody wanted to believe that the straight A, athlete was knocked up but it was true. My initial reaction was abortion. The people at the clinic suggested adoption, but if I was going to have the baby, I wanted to keep it. So I set the appointment for my abortion and I remember feeling so cold about the situation. I told my best friend about my decision and she supported me, but told me that I wouldn't have the heart to do it. "You don't know me", I said to myself... Turns out I didn't know myself. As the days drew closer to my appointment, my fears as well as my optimism grew. When I had set the appointment, I was supposed to have a counsellor call me every night until the date, but I never got the call. Guilt was settling in.
Scan changed my mind A few days before the appointment,I had to go the hospital for an emergency sonogram because I was having intense pains in my lower abdomen. They found no problems, but when I saw the "fetus" in the sonogram, I knew she was my baby. I cancelled the appointment right before the actual date and was so relieved. No more crying myself to sleep. Having my daughter changed my entire life. I am very happily married to her father and we now have a total of 3 kids! I did not do the typical college thing, but I found who I really am as opposed to who I wanted to be. Trust me, we're not a common family. I don't know anyone who is like us and we're still very young (22). It's amazing how one decision can change your entire life. Life's not a fairy tale, so choose your actions wisely. I personally do not support abortion, but I understand it. It just wasn't right for me and God really showed me how my daughter was meant for me in various ways. I love my life and would have it no other way. I hope you make the right decision. I urge you to do your research about abortion. There are other options. Good luck and God bless you.
Editor's CommentI am glad you listened to your heart and had the courage to change your mind. Many people refuse to let go of their plans and dreams, fearing that their life will be out of control and they will regret giving up their eduction or career. It sounds as though you have been able to turn your life around and find true happiness. It may not have been what you dreamt of or planned, but a baby doesn't have to mean your life is ruined or that you can't pick up your education or career again. There is always someone to talk to who will help you think through an unplanned pregnancy and be sure of the decision you make 0300 4000 999 or follow the link to find a centre for crisis pregnancy support in your area.