My story... gosh where do u start!

By anonymous on 06/06/2010

I was perfectly happy with 2 fantastic kids. Good job and everything going ok and then I found out I was pregnant at 40.

Shocked was a small word to use. I went numb and just 20 mins after taking a test crying with shock the doctor gave me a form to terminate. All I said to her was I didn't want a baby.

I feel that I then started on a journey which I yearned to get off but all those around me said it was the right thing to do. I am a strong person and can not believe that i let people decide and take matters into their own hands.

I am now 11 weeks on from the day and the pain hurts, it eats my insides and affects by life so much. Everything is affected and I feel that my pain will never ever go away, and I will experience the pain for the rest of my life as punishment for what I did.

Can anyone help?

Editor's comment

These events often feel as though you have got onto a roller coaster and you can't get off. It is so very hard to find that you have been swept along with a decision that seemed to be the right thing to do, without fully exploring it with someone objective. I am sorry that you are now suffering and regretting the decision you made. Try googling for 'post abortion counselling'.

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