I will experience the pain for the rest of my lifeBy anonymous on 06/06/2010
`my story.. gosh where do u start! I was perfectly happy with 2 fantastic kids. Good job and everything going ok and then I found out I was pregnant at 40. Shocked was a small word to use. I went numb and just 20 mins after taking a test crying with shock the doctor gave me a form to terminate.
All I said to her was I didn't want a baby.
I feel that I then started on a journey which I yearned to get off but all those around me said it was the right thing to do.
I am a strong person and can not believe that i let people decide and take matters into their own hands.
I am now 11 weeks on from the day and the pain hurts it eats my insides and affects by life so much. Everything is affected and I feel that my pain will never ever go away and I will experience the pain for the rest of my life as punishment for what I did. Can anyone help?