An early medical abortionI found out I was pregnant in Feb this year. I told my partner and there was no reaction. He wasn't sad or happy,this was so hard.
Then I told my mum who was happy at first but then when I said I was thinking of terminating the pregnancy she was quite worried for me saying I will regret my decision.
I felt I had no other choice as I was living at home with my mum not with my partner, and he buried his head in the sand from the word go.
A medical abortionI was totally on my own I had to tell my boss at work as I needed time off as I was quite ill. She was not supportive either saying I was too young. When I was at work I was still expected to work long shifts over the mothers day period. This made it so hard.
I booked in at the clinic in March and had to take a tablet. My partner came with me and I wanted him to talk me out of it but he didn't. I just got 'you're doing the right thing'.
After I got home I cried for so long but it was too late. The next day I had to return again to the clinic to have another 4 tablets.
That night I never felt so much pain, physically and mentally.It's been about 3 months now and the pain does get easier but from time to time I do get very sad thinking about it. I wish I'd stood up for myself and gone ahead with the pregnancy. I will never judge any one for having an abortion, but I will never have one again.
Editor's CommentYou had a hard decision to make, and you longed to have more support and communication from your partner, but he seemed to have made his own mind up. It is hard to come to terms with an experience like this when you perhaps felt pressurised into terminating the pregnancy without really wanting it in your heart of hearts. It may help you to have some post abortion counselling and support to help you to come to terms with what you have been through. Follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area. a> or ring the national helpline for more help and information 0300 4000 999.
This story was sent in on 03/07/2010