I'd only known my boyfriend 4 months.
It was too soon to think about childrenI had a surgical abortion 2 days ago and to be honest all I feel is relief. I have only been with my boyfriend 4 months, as soon as i found out I was pregnant I told him and we both agreed it was too early in our relationship to be thinking about children. We haven't even been on holiday together yet! When I went to my doctor they gave me a number to ring to book the abortion appointment, they told me the earliest they could fit me in was in a weeks time.
Waiting was the hardest thingWaiting for that week was the hardest thing out of the whole experience, my stomach was already getting harder and more bloated looking and I got tired easily. It was really hard knowing that the foetus was in there and there wasn't anything I could do about it. When I got to the clinic everybody was really helpful and friendly, during my consultation I had a scan and found out I was 7 weeks pregnant, I didn't want to look at the picture in case I had any pangs of guilt, I had to wait another hour before I could go in for surgery. During that time me and my boyfriend talked about whether this is what we both really wanted, he was so supportive I don't know what I would of done without him. He had to leave while I went in the surgery, to be honest I was more scared of the anaesthetic injection than anything else! The surgeon and nurses spoke to me the whole time making sure I was OK.
I felt sick and dizzyWhen I came round properly I felt really sick and dizzy, I was put in a recovery room with other girls who had just been through what I had. I spoke to the girl next to me as she was crying and I felt I had to help her. She had 4 children and couldn't afford another as she was studying, and it wasn't a decision she took lightly. Once I had something to eat I felt better and they let me leave with my boyfriend. I have had only a slight bleeding in two days, and the pain is nothing like what I thought it would be, only like period pains, and it comes and goes. If anyone is thinking of having an abortion don't be scared.
Talk to someoneI'm not trying to influence anyone into a decision but all I feel now is relief and I feel I did what was right for me. If you feel you can't talk to anyone please try. I wasn't going to tell my boyfriend but I am so so glad I did, it made me feel like I wasn't going through it by myself and a huge weight was lifted off me once it was out in the open. I hope my story helps.
Editor's CommentYou sound thankful that the pregnancy, and the problems it may have brought, are over. And I am glad that you had someone with you. It can be more distressing to go through an abortion in isolation. You advise other people in a similar situation to talk - this is good advice. I agree that speaking to someone, especially a trained advisor, can be a great support to anyone in a crisis pregnancy situation. With regard to your feelings, it is very normal to feel relieved straightaway. This may continue, but it is also early days yet, so please get in touch with us if that relief gives way to more difficult emotions. Follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area. a>
This story was sent in on 13/01/2011