Feelings of guilt, regret and pain over her abortion
At this point our relationship was over, I was studying, feeling very stressed, and when I told him I was pregnant again he told me to have a termination or he would be out of my life and our child's life. I ended up going to see the GP about having an abortion and I felt swayed into it by everyone - even professionals.
I cancelled two appointments because I couldn't decide and in the end I was told if I cancelled again I wouldn't be able to go through with the procedure, so literally at the last moment I just did it at 12 weeks.
It was the surgical method and although the process was quick and simple the whole thing felt clinical. I had two days of relief and then the guilt and regret set in. Two months have passed now and it's like a black cloud over my head filled with guilt, regret and pain, I'm not sure it will ever go away. I wish someone had told me about this feeling.
The father ended up disappearing anyway without a care in the world which only made things worse.