It's been 4 months but I still regret it every day.
By anonymous on 10/02/2012I had an abortion last October and even though it's been four months on I still regret it everday.
Me and my boyfriend were only together for a few months when I found out I was pregnant. When I told him, the first thing he said was get rid of it and then went on an all boys holiday so I was left to deal with it on my own.
I firstly just wanted to keep it but when I told a few close friends, some of them said keep it and some of them said just get an abortion. I knew deep down that I wanted to keep it and raise this child but I was thinking that it was bad timing and could I actually raise a child? Was I ready?
After speaking to my parents, they said that it was best to get an abortion, so we booked it and I went with my mum a week later.
I hadn't spoken to my boyfriend since I told him and he was still on holiday. When I rang he just said do what you want, I don't care and we broke up.
When I got there I was taken into a seperate room to change and I was crying for ages. The nurse said to me 'are you sure you want to do this, there are other options' and I said yes sorry. But if I could go back in time everytime I would say 'no, I want to keep and raise my child'.
Afterwards I just felt empty and hopeless and just sadI cried for ages and just wished I could take it back, I wish I said no and kept my child. Despite what anyone says I could of done it and been a good mum.
I feel like I did it for other people and didn't make the right decision for myself.
I wouldn't say abortions are bad because they do work for some people but it was just the wrong decision for me.
To my lovely little Angel <3 Mummy's sorry she couldn't take care of you and bring you into this world. You will always be in my heart.
Lots of Love xx