I am 19 weeks pregnant, and was going through with the abortion.
Fast forward to missing periods, feeling sick, needing the loo a lot and having a boob growth I mentioned my symptoms to a friend and she went and got me a test. I joked around saying it can't be but took the test. So there it was positive- I was livid. I didn't know what to do. I was final year at a very respected university and couldn't wait to get to a job in the city.
I spoke to my ex and he said instantly- you have to get rid of it, there is only one choice, that my parents didn't love me- he did so I had to do what he thought. He got his sister to email me and bully me and has told 4 of his friends already. Not the support I needed.
So I went home and had a scan, which came out 10 weeks pregnant. I was shocked and booked an abortion. The night before I told my dad- I guess I was having doubts and needed to tell him. He was and is so very supportive. The next day I went and decided I couldn't go ahead- now I knew my Dad was there whatever I wasn't about to be brainwashed.
I decided to go again, twice more, both times I was hysterical. I knew mentally me or my family can't support it and I wanted my life so badly. But in the clinic I would cry and one time they sent me home refusing to do it- the next time they told me to put the pill in my mounth and I couldn't.
So now I'm nearly 18 weeks pregnant. I overheard a family conversation tonight that they can't believe how much I messed up my life. This killed me inside. That and the fact my ex has called me the most horrid of names. My friends all think I should have an abortion, even I do in my head. I thought I was keeping it- I have the scan photos, maternity clothes, but after hearing everyone's comments, being so alone, and knowing mentally I can't have a life I think I am back to going again. All I can say is I'm in great pain- I have lost who I am and hate my life.