Oh how I wish I had done something different.

I didn't know what to do after my abortion. I didn't want to go through with it to begin with but my partner and family weren't going to give me their full support. I am having help from an advisor on here and tonight, I got out my feelings and put them to paper. I wonder if it runs true or if any women can relate and take comfort in the ending of the following song that I wrote. I called it, Altered Future. Altered Future Sitting here, wondering what the future holds. Lying alone on this bed of white, they're coming any moment now. I tried to protect, I gave it my all. Seems life wasn't the way, the future has been altered for us. Till now, I always thought about us playing, running around and laughing. Then things, change without us knowing, oh how, I wish I had done something different, even breathed in a different pace.  At first I was scared, confused and a mess. Knowing you were right inside, that gave me strength. Had it only have been a different time. Maybe you'd be mine. Our future has been altered for us. Till now, I always thought about us playing, running around and laughing. Then things, change without us knowing, oh how, I wish I had done something different, even breathed in a different pace.  I will hold on tight, for the little joy you had brought. But for now be blessed, I treasure that you only knew good.  Our future was altered for us. For all women in the same shoes as me, know you aren't alone. Help is there and don't be afraid to use it. With love to you all. Blessed Be S xx

Editor's Comment

Thanks for sharing your song. I found it very moving and I am sure that it expresses the grief and regret that some women experience after an abortion. I am glad that you are getting some help and support, and hope that you will be able to work through some of these difficult emotions.

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