Before I begin to write my experience on this, I want to thank all those of you who shared what you felt in this very private phase of life which indeed helped thousands of women like me.
Though I accidentally got pregnant, soon as I realized it, I started getting attached emotionally to the child. But being in no position to keep it in me due to various reasons, I decided to abort it. My partner was more eager than me to let go of our little one. He was no way bonded to it and didn't feel even a little sad about what has happened. This disturbed me the most. Being a partner, what I expected was few soothing words to console and support me in this situation, which I never got from him. In fact he made fun of the little one which was the least I could take in this position. Yes, there are such partners in this world. If you are a gal reading this, do not rely on your partner always. If you are guy reading this, please make an attempt to understand your partner's needs.
By the way I was about 5 weeks pregnant. In all this mental trauma, I orally took 200mg of Mifepristol and waited for the process to begin. But sadly, I saw no bleeding nor cramps. I lost hope over this pill. Then I read again that some women do not see symptoms over the 1st pill. 12 hours later, I orally took 400mg of Misoprostal keeping it below my tongue. In just about 30 min, I was shivering badly and had diarrhoea. In about an hour, I was bleeding. Cramps and contractions were light. 3 hours later, I passed out a huge lump of blood which was supposedly my little one. Few clots too later made their way out. Diarrhoea continued and bleeding was heavy. That night I vomited about 5-6 times along with chills, fever and took about 2-3 days for recovery. Bleeding lightened day after day. So Misoprostal is a killing medicine with lots of side-effects. Be mentally prepared before this process.
Still my partner had no clue I was alive or dead. So gals be very careful. If you are not brave enough to handle such situations alone, then do not get into one. Take care...
It sounds as though you feel let down by your partner's lack of understanding and support, and this must be very upsetting. Going through a medical abortion can be a difficult experience, and support and comfort are really important to help you through. You may feel that talking this through to process some of these painful emotions would help. Please contact CareConfidential if you would like to talk to a post abortion advisor. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.