6 years ago to the day was your due dateBy anonymous on 22/07/2012
All I remember of the day.
I found out I was pregnant with you sitting in my friend's bathroom with 4 pregnancy tests in the sink all showing me that I had you, my baby, inside me. I wanted to cry and scream or shout but I couldn't. I had no emotion.
I was 16. I was no age to understand what was going on. My friend sat with me by her toilet and we sat there for an hour not saying anything, she just cuddled me.
She told me I should tell your father. Hands trembling I called your father, he reacting instantly. 'You can't keep it! It'll ruin both our lives'. Looking back on this statement I remember thinking he's right. I was living in London away from my parents studying at college. I was young and naeve. At first, your father spent alot of time with me.
Firstly we went to the doctor's to get a confirmation that I was pregnant with you. I remember the doctor turning to me after taking my 5th pregnancy test of that week and saying 'congratulations'. It was at that point I started to feel what was happening, that you were inside me. I couldn't take my hands off my belly. Knowing you were there laid inside me. I had a baby inside of me. I had you inside of me. I didn't tell anyone other than your father and my friend that I was pregnant with you, a decision I've regretted every day since, so I had to go on with my day to day life without letting on what I was going through.
The first appointment I went to was a consultation in the centre of London. Your father came with me, and he was very supportive.