I found out I was pregnant 1 week before my 18th birthday (last Friday)

I found out I was pregnant 1 week before my 18th birthday (last Friday) and my 22 year-old boyfriend told me I couldn't keep it when I came to the decision that I wanted to have the baby. He said he'd leave me and said many cruel and heartless things. His main concern was his future and his dream of his band becoming successful and how I would be 'tearing that away from him'. Because I cared so much about him and believed I loved him I went through with the abortion after being 7 weeks 2 days pregnant... I haven't seen him since but spoke on the phone and he said his Dad wants him to never see me again. Yes I am responsible, but it wasn't just my decision. I’m now heartbroken over the loss of my baby and the loss of someone I put all my faith into and trusted for the first time after being treated very badly by a man last year. Now, I need to move on and begin to heal knowing that it is OK to cry and grieve... I haven't really got anyone to help me through this but other people’s stories do help. They let you know that you are not alone. I pray a lot now and I hold on to my unborn child by remembering that he or she is with God now and they are happy. I pray for God's forgiveness for myself and for the other people involved. And if God can forgive me for my sins then I need to forgive myself one day and forgive the people that weren't there for me when I needed them the most. Editor’s note: I was so sorry to read how things turned out for you, yet I am also so impressed with your attitude despite your broken heart. Although it may feel you are without anyone to help you through this, there are people who would love to support you as you go forwards from here. If you are near one of the centres listed on the web site I encourage you to make contact with them as they have a programme called The Journey which really does make a difference. Or if not, you can write to us at Online Advisor and receive help. Thank you for writing to us, and be encouraged that people do care and want you to be able to become strong and happy again.
This story was sent in on 21/07/2007

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