I can't help but regret my decision

I'm a 17 year old girl and have been in a relationship now for over a year.
I knew I was pregnant because I began to get tired and hungry more often than normal and my breasts began to hurt and grow. Me and my partner said we would give it till the end of January to see if my time of the month came but I decided to go to my sister who made me take a test that day... which was positive... I was shaken crying and I didn't know what to do, but everybody surrounding me was saying abort it especially my partner.
I rang the place that helps you and they booked me in for a week later for my scan etc. I still was not sure then on what I wanted.
I arrived and the woman who scanned me was telling me everything! I just wanted to tell her to stop cos I was frightened. Then I had to wait 11 gruelling days for my abortion date and I ended up in arguments with my partner.
Now 3 months on I can't help but regret my decision and hold my partner responsible for pushing me into it. I know my unborn baby would have been 18 weeks today and would have been a September baby. It haunts me and I'm jealous of pregnant friends.
I'd advise if you find out you're pregnant, don't rush into abortion straight away. You won't know how hard it hits you till it's gone.
I got myself straight back to work and meeting friends but it soon hits you! :(

Editor's Comment

I would agree with you that it is important to take time in making your decision, and talk to some one completely independent who can help you to think through your own thoughts and feelings. When you are feeling vulnerable in the early stages of pregnancy it is hard to stand up to the pressure from others who think they know what is right for you.
If you are still finding it hard to come to terms with the abortion, I would advise you to have some post abortion counselling. It really does help you to find closure from these painful emotions. You can call the national helpline, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 15/04/2013 and it's been viewed 305 times.

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