A medical abortion at 15 weeks.
I'm 18 and just left school, I'm looking for a job and only working part time. My boyfriend has a low paid full time job with saving issues, so I knew I couldn't give the baby a life that he or she deserved.
I finally booked the appointment without telling my parents and found out I was 15 weeks pregnant. I was so angry at myself for leaving it so long! But I still knew I had to do it.
I went for the medical abortion and my boyfriend was there, we had both lied to our parents on where we were which was the worse thing I've done!
I was in so much pain and it felt I was stuck at the the hospital for a lifetime as I was so far on I had to give birth to a fetus. I knew it would be fully developed and the nurses told me not to look when it happened, but I couldn't help it and I did. It didn't hit me what I had just done.
Once I left I knew I had done the right thing.
Two weeks on, what I have done is haunting me, and I feel so empty and alone. Have I done the wrong thing? will I look back in ten years time and think I would have a son or daughter, and wonder what they would be like, how my life would have panned out?
The worst thing is not thinking it through, I knew I couldn't support my child but everyone says there's a bond with your child when you're pregnant and I felt it.