I had an abortion at 12 weeks and 4 days pregnant

I had an abortion at 12 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I am sharing my story as a way of venting and coping with my emotions at this time. Well let me start off by saying that I am a single mother of 2 great little girls that I love endlessly. I was seeing this guy for a few months, not trying to fall in love or anything like that, just enjoying each others company for lack of better words.
We were friends first so we used to talk about everything, and I loved that about him. Well I found out I was pregnant in October. I told him and our communication stopped days later. He would not answer his phone, texts or come and see me anymore. This was devastating to me and the worst part was that I had no one to really express my feelings to. I then turned to my closest 2 girl friends for support, but I feel like they had their own opinion on what I should do with my life and the life I was carrying. **I just wanted support not their judgement**. I am still dealing with my emotions as I write this a week after the procedure. The truth is I wanted to keep my baby. I was just too overwhelmed with the thoughts of bringing another child into this world alone with only me to love it and care for it. I am a single mom already so I know how it goes and I felt that I owed this child more after learning from my previous experience with my daughters. I would like to think I did the right thing but that is not making my tears stop or this pain go away. I guess only time can and will do that.

Editor's Comment

Sad that when it came to the crunch the person that you thought you could talk to wasn't there for you. Even though this was your decision you still have feelings of grief and loss, and you do need to allow yourself time to come to terms with your loss. It may be helpful for you to talk to someone independent and help is available. You can call the national helpline, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 23/12/2013

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