Surgical abortion!

Surgical abortion! I am 9 weeks pregnant and in serious thought of an abortion but the thing is... 4 years ago today 13th February I had a surgical abortion so I know exactly what to expect which scares the life out of me, not because the procedure was bad, it wasn't but the aftermath and dealing with it was.

4 years later I am in the same position again with a different partner who pretty much told me I'm on my own if I decide to continue with the pregnancy so I'm terrified which ever decision I make.
I have a beautiful 5 year old son and he's my everything but it's a struggle every day and I'm afraid if I continue with this pregnancy then my son will not get everything he needs and will have to do without. I don't want to be a single mom of 2 and not give them both the best. I think I know what's best but the guilt and loss I know I'll feel terrifies me.

Editor's Comment

Your feelings after the previous abortion are still very painful, and that is affecting this present decision. I think it would help to talk your decision through with someone, so that you can weigh up your options, and perhaps consider some post abortion support to try and process some of these emotions.
This story was sent in on 13/02/2014 and it's been viewed 156 times.

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