Don't know what to do...

Don't know what to do...I've been dating a younger man for a little over a year. I feel for him but, don't feel in love ... I have two teenagers (19 year old son and 14 year old daughter) He has no kids, and since the beginning of our relationship I told him I didn't want any more kids. I raised both on my own and know and remember all I've went through. I always had my family's support but, it's not the same as dealing with daily situations...We were avoiding, but turns out that I got pregnant.
He says he'll support whatever I decide, but he really wants the baby... He knows I'm more towards birth termination.
I love the fact that my kids have become so independent and we can do and have so much fun together. I also enjoy the life and freedom I have now. I know it sounds selfish but, I dedicated, and still do my life to my two kids.
He says it will be different but I constantly ask myself, 'do I really want to go through this again?' At 45 years old? Start all over? What about my plans study to get a certification I need for my actual position at work? What about the fact that he earns half of my salary? Would it be insane to have a baby at this stage of my life? I'm not sure if we'll stay together... How will I feel if I decide birth termination? How will I feel, or what will happen if I have the baby?...Don't know what to do...

Editor's Comment

It sounds as though you need to talk this through with someone impartial who will be able to help you to think through your options and how you feel about them. This is a big decision for you and worth thinking through to be sure you are comfortable with what you choose. for unplanned pregnancy support. or call the national helpline on 0300 4000 999.
This story was sent in on 01/08/2014

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