Don't know what to do...
By anonymous on 01/08/2014
Don't know what to do...I've been dating a younger man for a little over a year. I feel for him but, don't feel in love ... I have two teenagers (19 year old son and 14 year old daughter) He has no kids, and since the beginning of our relationship I told him I didn't want any more kids. I raised both on my own and know and remember all I've went through. I always had my family's support but, it's not the same as dealing with daily situations...We were avoiding, but turns out that I got pregnant. He says he'll support whatever I decide, but he really wants the baby... He knows I'm more towards birth termination.
I love the fact that my kids have become so independent and we can do and have so much fun together. I also enjoy the life and freedom I have now. I know it sounds selfish but, I dedicated, and still do my life to my two kids.
He says it will be different but I constantly ask myself, 'do I really want to go through this again?' At 45 years old? Start all over? What about my plans study to get a certification I need for my actual position at work? What about the fact that he earns half of my salary? Would it be insane to have a baby at this stage of my life? I'm not sure if we'll stay together... How will I feel if I decide birth termination? How will I feel, or what will happen if I have the baby?...Don't know what to do...