I pray, if we do have souls, that my angel is safe and protected in heaven, as I didn’t have the strength to protect my baby on earth.

I had an abortion two and a half years ago. I pray, if we do have souls, that my angel is safe and protected in heaven, as I didn’t have the strength to protect my baby on earth. I’m 21 and now have a beautiful baby girl, who makes life worth living again, and I try to have the strength to smile, and to live each day for her. I still dream of kissing, smelling, holding and touching the baby I aborted...and hope I can get over this pain, sorrow and feeling of being incomplete. If I wish anything from sending this message, it’s that someone reading this who is pregnant, and wants to keep the baby, but is scared what others might think, how family, friends, boyfriends etc might react. Forget them please...No one will give you as much love as the baby inside you...and this love is unconditional...my thoughts to anyone else in my position, reading this. X Editor’s note: Thank you for sharing your feelings with us…you seem to be in so much pain from your experience. It seems as if there is a place you go to in your heart where you find consolation in dreaming about the baby you lost. I feel there is more healing for you and I want to encourage you to find your nearest centre where you can have counselling, honour the memory of your baby and also come to the place of being able to let go in the best way possible. Online Advisor may also be a good source of help for you simply to talk it through. Thank you for sharing with us. We'll be thinking of you.
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