I had an abortion due to my boyfriend not wanting the baby.
I love him and I did that for him.
The abortion was so painful, I had to go into labour and I was in labour for over 3 hours and my boyfriend wasn't allowed with me I had to do it all alone.
I rang him while I was in labour crying my eyes out I just wanted to hear him, but he hung up on me.
He wanted the abortion because he said and convinced me we would be so much better together but 2 weeks after my abortion he cheated on me. I was so hurt, I was still upset about my baby and he did that to me.
No one else knew about the baby so I had no one to talk to.
I am now pregnant again. I have been on the pill since I was 16 and I haven't missed a day so this is unplanned and he shows no emotion and I can't go through the abortion again. I didn't realise I was pregnant till 11 weeks I'm so scared he doesn't want me or the baby I don't know what to do. I want to tell my mum but I'm scared. I don't know how to tell her he doesn't want anyone finding out this baby is his so it's going to look like I've cheated on him and I don't know who the father is.
I want this baby but I want the baby's father with ME. I grew up without my dad in my life and I know my mum struggled I don't want the same. I asked him about adoption but he said no because people will know I'm pregnant :( I need some advice to try change his mind or what I should do please.