I have just turned 18 and discovered I was pregnant
I have arranged to have an abortion but I feel like I am forcing myself to have the abortion. I am ridden with guilt and feel sick knowing the fact that the baby inside me will die because of me.
I'm only 6 weeks but already feel attached.
I have chosen an abortion because the baby's father has no money to support a child and neither do I. In addition to this I come from a poor family and a single mum. I have therefore been working hard for the last 6 years trying to follow my dream of becoming a successful dancer and actress.
There is no way my dream can go on if I have a child. I feel like all my hard work would be for nothing. On the other hand I just feel so guilty and know that god will punish me for this.
I was naive and just didn't think I would get pregnant. I just don't know how I'm going to live with this for the rest of my life and I'm scared I will regret it.
I wish I was where I want to be so I could keep it! I just feel so bad and keep crying my eyes out constantly. I don't know what to do. I feel like I will be a murderer.