The overwhelming feeling of regret has hit me hard

I had an abortion last week, I regret it so much.

When I found out I was pregnant I cried and cried... I was unsure what to do. When I spoke to the babies father and he said he'd support me but he thought it would be better for us both if I didn't keep it. We weren't together and after hours of talking about it I decided that he was right.

We made the decision to no longer carry on with the pregnancy. After we'd decided that I just wanted it over and done with.

I feel like I didn't stop to really think about it and I feel so empty now. The overwhelming feeling of regret has hit me hard. Sometimes I feel so angry that he doesn't feel so upset like me.

I am so confused my head tells me it was right but my heart is full of guilt, that day will haunt me for the rest of my life.

I only told the babies father and a close friend and I feel like I should have opened up to my mum or sister then maybe I wouldn't still feel so guilty. I don't know when this feeling is going to go away, but i would urge any women to never just rush an abortion, think about it first.

This story was sent in on 27/07/2015

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