My surgical abortion two days ago is the worst mistake I've made

Hi, I experienced a surgical abortion two days ago (click for more accounts of surgical abortion). It is the worst mistake I have ever made.

My partner wanted me to keep it but his angry outbursts and violence left me feeling hopeless and alone during the decision process.

I feel this pregnancy came to me for a reason and it was not my place to terminate. Now I have learned that I do want a family and that I do want to be pregnant.

My sister and my mother encouraged me to get the abortion which I felt swayed me. They both have had abortions and had no regrets.

Immediately I knew I had done something wrong and now I wish to take it back. I want to be pregnant again as soon as possible.

My partner thinks I've miscarried, my due date was March 10.

Please wait, don't make an emotional decision while vulnerable and alone, you will regret it. I do and hope to prevent others from feeling the same pain and loss.

This story was sent in on 01/08/2015

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