I had an abortion as I was unmarried and afraid of what my family and church would say

I am 40 years old now but I chose to have an abortion when I was about 21. I was afraid of what my family and church would say about me because I was unmarried.

So my boyfriend and I went to an abortion clinic. When I got the ultrasound there, she confirmed I was pregnant and I cried so much because I knew it was morally wrong to choose myself over this child's life but I went through with it anyway even though the doctor saw me terribly upset.

More than 20 years have passed by and I have NEVER spoken about it since, but I can never forget that child that I killed by my decision. I wished I had waited to engage in sexual relations until after I was married, then that child would have lived.

« I think its safe to say I'm not dealing with it as I should be

I was relieved at first then I got progressively worse…

We already have 3 kids and our plan didn't involve a 4th »

The 2 weeks I was sick our routine fell apart…

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