I had an abortion as I was unmarried and afraid of what my family and church would say

I am 40 years old now but I chose to have an abortion when I was about 21. I was afraid of what my family and church would say about me because I was unmarried.

So my boyfriend and I went to an abortion clinic. When I got the ultrasound there, she confirmed I was pregnant and I cried so much because I knew it was morally wrong to choose myself over this child's life but I went through with it anyway even though the doctor saw me terribly upset.

More than 20 years have passed by and I have NEVER spoken about it since, but I can never forget that child that I killed by my decision. I wished I had waited to engage in sexual relations until after I was married, then that child would have lived.

This story was sent in on 08/08/2015

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