I had my abortion in February this year at 11 weeks and it’s something I have not even begun to cope with.By anonymous on 07/08/2008
I had my abortion in February this year at 11 weeks and it’s something I have not even begun to cope with. It’s the worse feeling in the world and I feel so guilty for what I have done. It was such a tough decision and I felt under a lot of pressure from the father who is married and didn’t want anything to do with a baby. Now I wish I had not listened to anything he said and that I had had the baby and done it by myself. I don’t think there is an hour of a day that goes by without me thinking about my baby. This is something I would never want to go through again, whatever the circumstances. I didn’t think it was possible to love and miss something so much and I would do anything to have my baby back. My advice to anyone is to follow your heart and don’t let anyone push you into a decision you don’t want to make. I will regret my decision every day for the rest of my life. Editor’s note: Thank you for writing in and sharing your feelings with us…You sound deeply saddened, regretful, experiencing a sense of loss, guilt and emptiness that you probably didn’t expect. The pressure of someone else’s wishes and your circumstances made it difficult for you to follow your heart, and now your heart is in pain. You may be wondering how you’re ever going to move on from this. But there is hope. You can find support from your nearest pregnancy centre, ring the helpline or use Online Advisor to talk it through confidentially with someone who understands. We'll be thinking of you.