The daily guilt I feel is unbearable.
I have lived many years in Spain and am now married over here. About 3 years ago my husband and I started trying for a baby. I didn't expect there to be any complications. After all, I knew I could get pregnant. After 2 years of trying we went to see a doctor. Cutting a long story short, after many tests on both sides, it turns out my fallopian tubes are blocked after an infection I picked up after having the abortion all those years ago. I know what has happened to me is not the norm but it did happen and I feel I should write my story. Thanks to my careless teenage ways, my husband and I are now having to go through the very stressful and trying process that is IVF as this is our only chance of ever having the baby we so wish for. The daily guilt I feel is unbearable.
Editor’s note: Thank you for being so open about your experience of abortion and current difficulties in having a baby. We do hope there is good news for you in time. Are you getting all the support you need right now? What you said about feeling unbearable guilt is something that might be helpful for you to work through, so that it is less of a burden in this waiting time. You can use Online Advisor (if you register with the first 4 digits of a previously held British postcode) to talk with someone confidentially.