I had an abortion over four years ago now and I have regretted it every day since then.
Thanks for writing in - you are not alone in this. Your experience appears to have deeply affected you.. Decisions to have an abortion are often based on circumstances at the time – when abortion seems like the most logical option. Unfortunately, in a moment of crisis we can make decisions we later regret - often the reality of the situation only sinks in afterwards.
It does not sound like your doubts about the decision were too far from the surface, as you reacted very quickly and strongly to the emotional pain you felt. It seems like your head was saying one thing..but your heart was saying another. I would strongly recommend that you speak to someone about your continuing emotional pain and regrets – it appears to be affecting you deeply. Call our helpline on 0300 4000 999, or visit your nearest centre. Our advisors are experienced and will be able to help you.