I found out I was pregnant on the 29th June 2009.
It takes a lot of strength and courage to stand up for what you want when you are in your teens. I think you assume that 'adults' will know what is right for you. As you say it seemed like the right thing to do rationally, but your heart and instincts felt differently, and that is where the pain is coming from now. It seems as though you felt powerless in this situation to make the choice you really wanted, and betrayed by your partner withdrawing his support. Please think about getting some help through the helpline or a local centre. I think you would find post abortion support really helpful, and you need someone to stand with you when you are feeling so broken by your experience. You can ring 0300 4000 999, write to Online counsellor, or find a local centre on the web site.